I Am [Not] American [at Heart]
I am going to be buying a car.
I’m on the verge of it.
But next to getting this apartment and getting a job, few things have made me feel more
Not in a good sense.
As I said, I’m excited, but I also feel superficial. Materialistic. Empty.
Where is my best friend? She is uber-deep, thoughtful, and excellent. Keeps me in touch with who I am as a person.
I basically just want to note that in my whole thought process about this, I am aware of feeling like I want to keep meaning in my life. Depth.
I want to keep experiencing life outside America, appreciating different cultures from my own, valuing travel, connection with people different from me. That means something to me.
I’m buying a car, not becoming more American than I already am.
I like “others.”