Just a quick post about my… weight, including a overview of the/my history.
Pre-pubescent weight: can’t remember; didn’t care about it at the time; didn’t need to
Post-pubescent (age 14-18): 160-165 lbs.
Age 18: 165-170 lbs.
19: 203 lbs.
20: 180-185 lbs.
21: 170-175 lbs.
22: 165-170 lbs.
24: 160-165 lbs.
25: 155-160 lbs.
27: 150-155 lbs.
— I’m 27 years old and currently weigh the least I’ve ever weighed as a full-grown woman
— these were nearly all five pound estimates. I’ve lost since given up on trying to get myself to maintain an exact weight. I always give myself window of 5 pounds and as long as I stay within that window, I don’t freak out about the fluctuations. As long as I maintain my lifestyle, I maintain my general weight.
— most of the time’s I’ve lost weight it was only five pounds
— I didn’t document that the winter when I was 23, right before I turned 24, I gained 5-10 pounds after breaking my foot, which limited my exercise. Lost that weight once I could run again (though not like it was easy; losing weight never really is in my experience). I know from that experience that I just need to exercise, both for the mental side and the metabolism/calorie-burning side of weight loss/maintenance. I just can’t do it on eating healthy, limited amounts alone. I need exercise too!
It may not be obvious that I’ve spent the vast majority of the last nine years maintaining a weight, including not TRYING to lose any. At some point over the last nine years, I realized that it’s okay to not be able – mentally (that’s where the rubber meets the road) – to lose weight. Once in awhile, when the stars align and I feel like I can and want to, then I lose a few pounds. Most of the time though, I can’t do the mental part of it. I remind myself that, that is okay.
Having said that… it feels so good to weigh what I weigh now. So good. The best yet.